There are only two
mistakes one can make along the road to truth;
So, why now? Why have I chosen to press on? Simply put, because I need to for myself, for my health, for my mental wellbeing and for the ones I love.
not going all the way,
and not starting---Buddha
Such
a simple yet powerful concept. Well I
have made those mistakes time and again.
I am hopeful that that this time I well go all the way! Now, finding the drive to NOT be consistently inconsistent, which is often a recurring
theme in my life, becomes a new focus. This
journey I started over 20 months ago has not ended, derailed maybe, but not
over, not until I have finished what I set out to accomplish.
I must add that in my hiatus I have, in fact, accomplished a
few things, found some resolution and even some inspiration. So though I have spent an awful lot of time
sitting on my fluffy ba-tootie, I have made some progress in my quest with the
Lady in the Mirror.
That Lady in the Mirror still stares at me, still frightens
me and catches me off guard, as I am sure I do to her. However she has become accustom to my vigilant
questioning and I have become more comfortable with her in my life. Together
we have become brutally honest with each other, though I admit I often ignore
her. Thank goodness she is patient with
me
.
In my often inept attempts to escape reality and the stresses
of life I spent way too much idle time sitting in front of this screen being
unproductive, unmotivated and let’s face it, a total sloth. And no, that is not “negative self talk” but
rather a pretty true description of how I have been choosing to spend my time. On occasion I am inspired, but usually chose
not to act on that inspiration—it requires too much effort!
So, why now? Why have I chosen to press on? Simply put, because I need to for myself, for my health, for my mental wellbeing and for the ones I love.
The plan: eat better,
start moving again, stop hiding, and at the very least, complete a 5K, maybe
even a Tough Mudder event! That’s right
folks, this unfit, now 50yr old, petulant woman aspires to be a Mudder! I also plan to visit here often, continue to
post on my trials and tribulations of training and getting a firm grip on my
life and finding more continuity with
the Lady in the Mirror.
.
In closing, once again I choose the words of Buddha (such a
wise man!):
“The secret of health for both mind and body is not to
mourn for the past,
worry about the
future, or anticipate troubles,
but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly.”
Side note: Not sure how
often I will post, at a bare minimum once or twice a month, more often if time
and inspiration permit…
