Random Awareness

The greatest awareness comes slowly, piece by piece.      

~~M. Scott Peck

So the other day at the gym I had this little burst of self awareness.  Not sure how it came about, but it started me thinking about lots of random stuff at the gym as well as throughout my day.  I thought it would be fun to post the inner workings of my sometimes twisted mind when I am working out or adjusting to the life style changes that I am trying to make.  So here goes a list of very random things that have popped in my head over the last few weeks…

·         I’m getting stronger

·         I have to tie my sweat pants tighter

·         I like meat (beef) but it doesn’t like me (heartburn city)  

·         Vegetables really are gross, but I can tolerate some better than before but keep those damn brussel sprouts away from me!

·         OMG I hope I’m not a grunter when I’m lifting

·         Water is pretty yummy

·         I really like working out, why is it so hard to get me to the gym?

·         Yeah baby, I’m gonna be able to do someday that real soon

·         When one does not eat sugary stuff for awhile, fresh hot ewy-gooey chocolate chip cookies can make you VERY nauseated!

·         OMG how does she keep going and going and going?

·         Complex carbohydrates can fix irritable bowel syndrome (teehee)

·         My back hurts whether I am exercising or not, so I might as well exercise

·         I can put my hands on the side grips of the recumbent bike without my butt rubbing on them now

·         I would rather exercise than go to work

·         Two bites and I’m full, how does that happen?

·         Wow, it’s been 30 minutes already

·         I am a sexy beast!

So what random things pop in your head when your exercising????

The Road

“It’s your road and yours alone. Others may walk it with you, but no one can walk it for you.”  ~~~Unknown

It’s been nearly two months since I started my new health plan.  I can tell you that it has not been easy, nor has it been that horribly difficult.  I am proud to say that I have lost 18 pounds and am beginning to feel a bit better most days

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It’s nice to have an objective, independent support person to help guide me in the right direction, provide words of encouragement and mostly reassure me that I am on track.  But I know that there will come a day, a day much sooner that I anticipate, that I will have to forge ahead on my own.  That’s the hardest and scariest part for me really. 

Eating healthier and even the exercise is not the biggest hurdle for me.  It’s maintaining the positive mindset and not giving in to the path of least resistance, which got me to this unhealthy state of living.  It’s realizing that whatever story we tell ourselves will become our reality.  That’s the hard part!  So I am trying desperately to re-script that story by using different strategies to keep me on track and to reinforce the changes that I am making. 

I’ve turned my facebook page into basically a vision board—collecting and posting motivational quotes and uplifting, positive pictures.  I’m trying to shut down the negative self talk and to let the stresses in life go.  I am starting to engage in activities that I enjoy and planning (and dreaming) of those things I want to do.  I am distancing myself from the people and things that bring me down.  I have rediscovered and am practicing in earnest meditation, which my friend, has made a HUGE difference in just a very short time. 

Though it may be silly to some, hard to understand by others, for me being in the right state of mind just makes everything easier!