Time. Where does it go? Why does it drag? Why can’t I use my time wisely? Have you ever gotten up in the morning and had all these plans for the day—your to do list--only to get utterly nothing done??? Yet there was absolutely no reason not to get something done?
It seems like I go through periods of my life unmotivated, so much so that it seems impossible to do the simplest task. The heaviness in my mind and on my body is sometimes so overbearing that I just want to lie down and sleep. Ah, but sleep never comes and just adds to the inertia.
Today has been one of those days. Got nothing done, didn’t even go to the gym or for a walk. Think maybe I am stressing about returning to work. Not that I don’t want to—I need the diversion, crap, I need the money! I think it’s because I’ve had all this TIME and still have a house to dig out, taxes to do (yeah I know, it’s August…). I laugh to myself as before I lost my job last year I used to wish I could just have a couple weeks, maybe a month off, to have a few days for me, then the rest to get all the stuff done that I never seem to be able to get done. Well, I’ve had more than a couple months off and have…let’s see…accomplished….nothing! Big sigh. There’s always tomorrow!
You know, Candi, I'm beginning to think we were separated at birth. :) I've been unemployed since April 2009, and I've often wondered how I ever got anything done when I worked! There's always something that needs doing!
ReplyDeleteI spin my wheels a lot, but one tool I've used is the zen habits "MIT" trick. Each morning I list the three most important things that need to be done that day. Those are the things I tackle first. (For me, exercise is always on the list.) If there are time gaps, I try to fill in with other tasks, but that's a hit-and-miss effort.